it doesn't hurt me when you lie straight to my face
it doesn't hurt me when i see you smile at another girl like you smile at me
it doesn't hurt me when you say that you don't need me
and it really doesn't hurt me when you say i love you everyone except me the one who dose love you
it does hurts me every time i see you

it does hurts me every time i hear you voice

it does hurt me every time you are near me but i can't touch you

and it really does hurts me every time i remember that i let myself fall in love with you, knowing nothing would ever come out of it

Isn't my life still too long
For erasing these feelings?
I have things left to do
Because I want to try redoing them

Even though I was supposed to be pursuing the continuation of my dream
I stumble over other people on a narrow, winding road

It's not that I want to return to how it was like back then
I'm searching for the sky that I've lost
I wish that you'll understand me
Stop making that sad face like you've been sacrificed

There aren't tears at the end of sins
I've painfully bore them all this time
In the labyrinth of emotions where I can't see the exit
Who am I waiting for?

As if having written it in a white notebook
I want to divulge myself more honestly
What do I want to flee from?
...Something known as reality?

I'm alive so that I can fulfill myself
I feel like shouting so; can you hear me?
Because I can't be doing it safe and sound
…There's no place for me to return to, either
I'm always grateful for kindness
So I want to become strong (I'm on the way)
I even welcome such a pain
That turns nostalgic

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I wounded them gently
So that it would be as if they couldn’t feel any pain
By replacing it with words
I made myself forget that sorrow
Ah, what have I lost right now?

There is the memory of a dream
Created from the sounds of a sin you can’t expiate
From this world I longed for

People’s prayers have just vanished, they are always imperfect

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I pile soil onto your corpse
Even if that was forbidden
In the bliss of your innocent gaze
There was an incompletely hidden temptation

Why do sins exist?
Why do punishments exist?

The tip of the bone was very white
And invited the infinitely continuing darkness
Just about everything might seem vivid
And disappear soon

I lock up your memories
Even if they were to be damaged
At the depths of a crazed love
There was an incompletely repressed impulse

While I gathered up the pieces
I was waiting for the end of the dream

Because those who have sins are giving up
Because those who have punishments yearn too much
Just about everything might be abandoned
And spin, keep on spinning

Will I be able to laugh when morning comes?
Will I be able to laugh like I did on that day?
I wish, I keep on wishing
That there isn’t a thing that I’ve lost

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At the end of my memories, I searched for the future plans of my ideals,
I feared something, I couldn’t understand what…so I shivered in loneliness.
Without showing it, you always smiled gracefully
and embraced me in you arms.

As if awakening, I fell in love
and took you into my dreams.
But you’ve always, you have always,
tenderly lied to me.

Without saying anything, the reason for my hesitation, that reason
for my own selfishness and out of fear, I made it our vow.
Without being hugged, you’ve always gracefully smiled
and aimed for the unending night.

As if awakening, I fell in love
and took you into my dreams.
But you’ve always, you have always,
tenderly hurt me.

With your invisible feelings, you gracefully smiled
and aimed for the unending night.

As if awakening, I fell in love
and took you into my dreams.
But you’ve always, you have always,
tenderly lied to me.

We’ve become so distant that time stopped, our distance become a song…
I’ve waited…I’ve always waited
for that time when we saw the shooting stars.


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Dear beloved,
Who are you thinking of?
This “letter” is still within my heart,
suddenly, it touched the fragments of your memories
pierced in my heart…

I hope you take notice…no don’t notice!
The thing making me act cold…is it love?
I want to say “Stay with me!” but…I can’t say it…

I met you in this defiled world,
showering my heart with a miracle, please play for me
“Zuellni of Love”.

Rebirth has begun, leading us to our destiny.
The wandering you is just a mirage,
when I get closer, you get further away…
swaying in this haze…are my ideal plans.

I hope you’ll let me listen…no, I don’t want to hear,
The thing making me gentle…is it the rain?
I don’t know what I want to believe yet…I can’t say it…

Glittering in that future, is you with a smile,
if I can be by your side, then I’ll become strong,
Even if I use a suspicious lie, even if we disagree,
in order to not forget my true words…gently I write then down
in this “Letter” of Love

I met you in this defiled world,
looking at sadness with those strong eyes,
hurt from fighting, you sleep into your dreams.
I wonder if my feelings will reach you, please tell me
“Zuellni of Love”.

I'm all alone ones here to hear me scream out my pain
the longer i stay here the more i feel as if I'm slowly dying on the inside
will no one come and find me , i feel as though my time is running out
it wont be long before its my time for ,me to disappear
still even now on the brink of death fading away
slowly loosing the existence i once cherished so much
no one will come for me and i know this for a fact
it hurts it hurts oh so badly
but... there nothing i can do anymore...is there
I'm nothing but a dead spirit floating around in this unforgiving world
till the end of time

you are the one who taught me what true happiness is in this world

i can no longer hear your voice like i once could ...though
but i can still feel you touch with every warm touch you give me
please don't ever stop being near me and in my life
you are the one that taught me how to love
you are my first love
my one and only
please don't ever leave from my side

what ever happened to the bond we once sheared
has it been swept up like dust into the air
i can no longer hold onto this unfruitful love
never will you be able to true fully under stand what i felt for you
my soul will always be with you
forever like shadow trying to find light
but your scenario is to bright for my background
so for now ill keep my heart at a distance
but my love will always come following after you

lets us run into the blood covered world
let us make a new definition of love
let us try to find what true heart filled pain feels like
lets just die with a smile
can you run away, can you run away
from this world that gives out so much pain
we are the angles sent from hell
you can't run away, you can't runaway
cause this is that fate you were born to live with
so we must try to live with the pain

Come now, let us forget that our future will
once again be splattered with blood.
When the mild wind coils around you,
that is surely a sign

Saying run away, saying run away
From your far too tragic destiny
You are not a flower from Hell
In a place like that
Do not bloom, do not bloom
Don't get seized and taken away

The silently fluttering shards of time

Who has my hand in their grasp?
Who has my hair between their fingers?
The sprout that just cried, deep inside
It can feel a sign

Saying fly beyond, saying fly beyond
Away from the cogs of destiny
You are not a flower from Hell
In a place like that
Do not scatter, do not scatter
and don't leave any seeds behind

If they sprout, the karma will return to you.

Saying run away, saying run away
From your far too tragic destiny
You are not a flower from Hell.
In a place like that
Do not bloom, do not bloom
Don't get seized and taken away

The silently fluttering shards of time
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In the empty stage
the curtain has already fallen on my time for dreams.
Just like yesterday, tomorrow will
not come again...I've realized it...

The last scene is always painful and beautiful, but
I'll wipe my tears and knock on this door!

I'll change into a brand new me!
I bring out my courage
without being ashamed!
My Heartful Song
My Heartful Song
I will always sing
so that it'll reach you!

I wonder since when did I stop showing my true smile,
don't give up on me, you've waited for me!

I brought up the shield of loneliness and fought myself,
but now I release my chains of deceit.

The affection in my nostalgic memories
opened my eyes and
I've become more honest!
My Heartful Song
My Heartful Song
I open my heart!

Today,
I'll change into a brand new me!
I bring out my courage
and continue to shine!
My Heartful Song
My Heartful Song
I will always sing
so that it'll reach you!




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