my happiness is something no one can touch it's the purest happiness in the most disgusting warped way
yes i have the best poker face will anybody ever be able to read me i feel sorry if you do cause some of the thing i went through will brake you before it does me

is it me or do i have true bad luck no this is my fate in which i cant change i lost many thing and got a even more back.... for that i am truely greatful you will never know
i miss her a lot she would always know what to say, always
i lost yet another person it don't hurt though it feels more right then wrong in a way
anyway it's my first Christmas without her my minds doing that crazy crap thing again happens very time
im sad in the worst type of way
you know i don't smile cause i want to i smile cause i have to it's the only way to blind my self from the harsh truth
take some time and look through my eyes and you'll finally see why i never really cry
life is like a boat and im going to keep on riding it to see what happens at the end

just some random thoughts lol do not take this foreal