it always take more courage to take a step back then to take one forward .....keep that in mind people

wow that's all i can say New Years is tonight a whole year has went by before my very eyes.
what will be my Resolution for this new year i really don't know i feel as though this will be a big turning point in my life ; like what ever i deiced to try to do this year will stay with me forever it's going to be my shadow always staying by me.

i been thinking about it a lot , i been thinking about a lot of things over the break some things that scare me , and some that make me see life in a different way us humans we really don't know how to see things with out clouded eye and i don't think we ever will.....

and from this i have found my Resolution!

the way how i see thing is that we all have Fates set in stone from the day we were born let it be good or bad its still our fate and we cant change it or so they say......but forget that crap

that's not what i think i know if we work hard enough and give everything a hell of a lot of effort then we can make our own future and that's what I'm going to do ; i really do think different from most people

from the time the clock hits 12:00 am and it turns 2009 I'll take my step back and I'm going to do and see things like i did when i was a kid with open but closed eyes cause there's still time left it's not to late to make up for all the things we missed out on there still time

i look forward to living in the future of the past

clear eyes, mind, and heart I'm letting all my demons go you should do the same if you don't it will only lead to self hatred , doubt , and worse of all clouded eyes

oh man it so late lol well MERRY AFTER CHRISTMAS hope everybody got what they wanted
i can say with a smile on my face that it was a fun good day played game talked with friends and family and got to read some y@*i lol. Terry said im sick and i am too I a got a cold the day before Christmas felt bad too oh well win some loose some , and i had dreams of people dancing sexy dancing lol this is what sickness does to me peopel and it had old pople in it they were so cute , now this is what terry means by im sick XD


BUT TERRY IM ONLY SICK FOR YOU and you to carol ( she always run's away from me lol)

im about to go to school and a little while last day the let Christmas break stat YES!! last chance to let old feeeling out form this year cause next year there might not be a chance XD WISH ME LUCK i really need it MERRY CHRISTMAS <3

so long so gone the chirstmas break is coming i cant wait im going to sit back and get fat ; oh i cant wait to play the games go online and kick people butts oh yeah!!!

once something is gone you can never get it back again
that's what she thought as she look back on all the old time's
her bright beautiful days are all but gone as she sit here all alone
one by one they left her here to sit and cower in this oh so lonely fear
the loved one's that she cherished so much are all gone and turned to dust
but she does not shed a tear cause one is still here and as long as she has that one
she will never fear cause she knows one of her lights are still here

the child that has nothing to worry about
such a free spirit with a clear mind
so happy and free all the time
surrounded by the ones she love's
a heart so sweet and pure just like a dove
oh what a free child with such clouded eyes
would she ever believe that people die
no she wont not yet at least
so just let her sleep in that beautiful childhood peace

this weekend i learned how much my hearts is truly like glass
i lost a lot of things in my life
you wouldn't know it by looking at me
i have one thing left no one person
and that person got hurt , it's hard for them to feel the ground beneath them
as i saw her trying so hard to move while using this thing to help her
it scared me ; no it terrified me
the one person that can keep the glass from breaking is hurt for the first time and i cant do anything
i wish i could walk for her , take the pain away but
she says she'll be OK
XD

another peace of the glass shattered again

yo im trying to get this so bad but i have to clean my room AAHHHHHH!!! last tme i did i found somethings that i think at one point was food
terry was all like 'clean your room it's not that hard'
bs it's not hard and you know what she cleaned it a little one time , and was like wooo thats just wrong lol she silly yo

Rudolf the red nose reindeer had a very shiny nose and if you ever saw him you would even say it glows......lol
Merry day to you all , dude im going to put my Christmas list on here sweet right ok here it is
GAMES X-BOX
Infinite Undiscovery
Lost Odyssey
Eternal Sonata
Ninja Gaiden 2
Dead or Alive 4
Naruto: Rise of a Ninja
GAMES PS2
Kingdom Hearts Re: Chain of Memories
Okami

i know no need to tell me i have grate taste
yeah i had more down this but i dont want to spend all that much money i only should get what i need you know and im happy for that

my happiness is something no one can touch it's the purest happiness in the most disgusting warped way
yes i have the best poker face will anybody ever be able to read me i feel sorry if you do cause some of the thing i went through will brake you before it does me

is it me or do i have true bad luck no this is my fate in which i cant change i lost many thing and got a even more back.... for that i am truely greatful you will never know
i miss her a lot she would always know what to say, always
i lost yet another person it don't hurt though it feels more right then wrong in a way
anyway it's my first Christmas without her my minds doing that crazy crap thing again happens very time
im sad in the worst type of way
you know i don't smile cause i want to i smile cause i have to it's the only way to blind my self from the harsh truth
take some time and look through my eyes and you'll finally see why i never really cry
life is like a boat and im going to keep on riding it to see what happens at the end

just some random thoughts lol do not take this foreal

so guess what me and terry are going into story making WOOO!!! i cant wait we like already started to go over the plot of one. it's like super good i may put it on my blog depending on how I'm feeling. it was really fun just sitting there going over how people should act and how the chapter will be it was like just cool. me and the LEZ make a grate team thats why were best friends. so to all my fan from fan fic ill be back soon sorry for the long wait.

aww it so cute have you ever saw sasuke like this

<<<<<<<< ........... TOO CUTE!

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I am the girl kicked out of her home because I confided in my mother that I am a lesbian.
I am the prostitute working the streets because nobody will hire a transsexual woman.
I am the sister who holds her gay brother tight through the painful, tear-filled nights.
We are the parents who buried our daughter long before her time.
I am the man who died alone in the hospital because they would not let my partner of twenty-seven years into the room.
I am the foster child who wakes up with nightmares of being taken away from the two fathers who are the only loving family I have ever had. I wish they could adopt me.
I am one of the lucky ones, I guess. I survived the attack that left me in a coma for three weeks, and in another year I will probably be able to walk again.
I am not one of the lucky ones. I killed myself just weeks before graduating high school. It was simply too much to bear.
We are the couple who had the realtor hang up on us when she found out we wanted to rent a one-bedroom for two men.
I am the person who never knows which bathroom I should use if I want to avoid getting the management called on me.
I am the mother who is not allowed to even visit the children I bore, nursed, and raised. The court says I am an unfit mother because I now live with another woman.
I am the domestic-violence survivor who found the support system grow suddenly cold and distant when they found out my abusive partner is also a woman.
I am the domestic-violence survivor who has no support system to turn to because I am male.
I am the father who has never hugged his son because I grew up afraid to show affection to other men.
I am the home-economics teacher who always wanted to teach gym until someone told me that only lesbians do that.
I am the man who died when the paramedics stopped treating me as soon as they realized I was transsexual.
I am the person who feels guilty because I think I could be a much better person if I didn’t have to always deal with society hating me.
I am the man who stopped attending church, not because I don't believe, but because they closed their doors to my kind.
I am the person who has to hide what this world needs most, love.

Repost this if you believe homophobia is wrong

With a calm gaze I will gradually sort out

The lights and shadows of this world[1]

Since that time Ive wanted to be like you

Pushing your way forward with slightly pursed lips[2]
In my dreams I have seen

A plain as wide as my eyes can see

Where lies will not blossom

Im waiting for you there
A story that will end emotionally

Began that day when you said I love you

I cant wait patiently for the start of the second half
Instead of endlessly doubting

I want to hear that dubious I love you

Until the end, always always
Words cannot be trusted completely

But when carried by voice, at least a little should certainly be conveyed

Lets ascertain together

The truth that will soon to be revealed

Even waking up to it brings no sadness[3]

Such a world is waiting for the two of us
I look back on the fleeing shadows along the road

The I love you I could not say that day

I cant catch up to it even with my last spurt
What should I do when I doubt even just a little?

Already a liar, but I love youI want to be by your side, always always
A story that will end emotionally

Began that day when you said I love you

I cant wait patiently for the start of the second half
I look back on the fleeing shadows along the road

The I love you you said that dayI cant help chasing after it, always always

this is not mine it's Utada Hikaru Uso Mitaina "I Love You"

the mask of happiness that i tryed so hard to put back on

is slowly falling and i don't know how to put it back on again ,

a one sided love that leaves me with nothing

but sorrow and fearful hope for tomorrow.

your here one minute and you say you love me

then the next minute you gone again

and I'm left here to think to myself what should i do

round and round just like a roller coaster

that what i would call our love

it's hard to hold on sometimes but ill keep on trying

you turn and you leave and i always go chasing after you

but one day it going to be you who's chasing after me

so I'll just keep chasing after you

until i get you to turn and face me

so you can Finlay see the one whose been chasing after your love

I'll keep on running and you'll keep on walking

until our story ends

i guess that just going to be the type of love we have

none of them are mine i just love them have good meaning to them

So dear I love him that with him,

All deaths I could endure.

Without him, live no life.

-William Shakespeare

"Love from one side hurts, but love from two sides heals."

-William Shakespeare

If I could have just one wish,

I would wish to wake up everyday

to the sound of your breath on my neck,

the warmth of your lips on my cheek,

the touch of your fingers on my skin,

and the feel of your heart beating with mine...

Knowing that I could never find that feeling

with anyone other than you.
- Courtney Kuchta

The red rose whispers of passion,

And the white rose breathes of love;

O, the red rose is a falcon,

And the white rose is a dove.But I send you a cream-white rosebud

With a flush on its petal tips;

For the love that is purest and sweetest

Has a kiss of desire on the lips.
- J B O'Reilly (1844-1890) –

I asked God for a flower, he gave me a bouquet

I asked God for a minute, he gave me a day

I asked God for true love, he gave me that too

I asked for an angel and he gave me you.
- John Raine

The sweet, rustic smell of the rain,

Fills my nose, my head, and my brain.

The springtime showers soak my dress,

and toes tingle with a grassy caress.

The beauty of this day is lost to me,

As the deaf man hears not the melody.

For all Nature's wonders seem so dim,

When I am here, standing next to him.
- Valerie Dawn Keller

You are friendly, kind and caring Sensitive,

loyal and understanding

Humorous, fun, secure and true

Always there... yes that's you.
Special, accepting, exciting and wise

Truthful and helpful, with honest blue eyes

Confiding, forgiving, cheerful and bright

Yes that's you... not one bit of spite.
You're one of a kind, different from others

Generous, charming, but not one that smothers

Optimistic, thoughtful, happy and game

But not just another... in the long chain.
Appreciative, warm and precious like gold

Our friendship won't tarnish or ever grow old

You'll always be there, I know that is true

I'll always be here... always for you.
- Written and owned by Angela Lee Hillsley –

Quotes By Other People:
Time is the best teacher, but unfortunately, it kills all of its students. -Robin Williams

The man who smiles when something goes wrong has thought of someone to blame it on.

Robert Bloch
Son, if you really want something in this life, you have to work for it. Now quiet! They're about to announce the lottery numbers. -Homer Simpson

You tried your best and you failed miserably. The lesson is 'never try'. -Homer Simpson

Whatever women do they must do twice as well as men to be thought half as good. Luckily, this is not difficult. -Unknown
Marriage is give and take. You'd better give it to her or she'll take it anyway. -Joey Adams

Anything can be made into yaoi. To us, two men talking is yaoi. -someone on Deviantart

Do not meddle in the affairs of slashers for you are cute and go well with other men. -An icon on Deviantart

Hell hath no fury like a woman scorned. -William Congreve, author of "The Mourning Bride"

Though I am not naturally honest, I am sometimes by chance. -William Shakepeare.

Never attribute to malice that which can be adequately explained by stupidity. -Hanlon's Razor

Few things are harder to put up with than the annoyance of a good example. -Mark Twain

I may not agree with what you say, but I will defend to the death, your right to say it. -Voltaire

(I'll take my time)

To slowly plot your end.

(But now I will)

Spit bullets with my pen.
And all I know is you're cute when you scream.
You know that you are worthless

And I am better thanThe games that you play princess.

(I've played) and always win.
I'll take you to the top,

Of this building and just push you off.

Run down the stairs so I can see your face

As you hit the street,the street, the street, the street.
You're Cute When you Scream - Senses Fail

i did not write this Kativa-chan did

all post for today are crap very bad not that im ever good LMAO

love is in the air i can smell it as i move my feet to the beet

i look out my window and all i see is people Holden hand

ooh how i wish that i could be one of them

ooh just you wait and see ill get my wish one of those days

but until then i keep dancing to the beet of my heart

ill make you see the person that i truly am

and then you'll fall in love with me

i think that's how the dream should go

and if that don't come true

at least i still have my dreams XP

very silly i just put things down

take a step at a time every thing going to be OK

i just need you to keep a smile on your face

times will be hard

but I'm sure we will make it through it

i just want you too stay with me till the end

let's go together to the place where

we know we can be our happiest and be with our friends

forever

lets jump up & down and clap our hands

just like when we were kids

not feeling to hot today kind of sad in a way funny huh

i sit here looking at the pictures of the past

how truly sad am i now

I'm like a statue that can not be moved

my heart is as still as the day you died

i know you can not change the past

nor can you turn back the hands of time

so i sit here waiting for you to return again

truly knowing that you wont be back

but ill still wait for you to come back

cause thats all i can do.....

oh this was bad , bad bad im still putting it up

i find it so funny how i can make poems so quick and yet i cant write a good essay for the life of me wonder why

the time to move on and step forward

is becoming more clear to our eyes

as the sun slowly sets at the end of

the day the time comes for us to say goodbye

i know it's hard to move forward but

it's going to be ok at the end of the day

only thing i you need to do is put a smile on your face

and im sure no matter how hard things get

ill be able to face them as long as i know

i have you smiling right by my side

searching for our light

i know one day will find it and well never look back again

i believe we can do it thats why

were restarting

i wrote this last night

the love that's was once the strongest in the world

has shattered and fell to little peaces on the floor

if you can put back the peaces together again

I'm sure that your love will shine again

words that never got spoken are now lost in your mind

now wishing you had the chance to say them again

why do we always loose the thing we want the most

something that was close to us

something you would never want to loose

ah with out a word it slips right through your hands

just like it was never there before

eh but you still feel the pain of loosing it

you will never forget about it

it's true

the love that's was once the strongest in the world

has shattered and fell to little peaces on the floor

if can put back the peaces together again

I'm sure that your love will shine again

again again you keep on trying

but it doesn't seem to be helping at all

maybe ts your fate to be alone forever

you just have to wait and see

if you'll find that something again

i wrote this cause i have nothing do to lol

i had a dream a very scary dream

it was that you were no longer with me

i walked down a road and i saw you

but you just walked through me like i wasn't there

tear flowed down my cheeks like water in a river

it was like i just been cut deeply

like a wound that can never be healed .......but

a love that's lost can no longer be found

so ill just sit here and cry my loneliness away

ill stay here forever until you come to find me

then the love that was once lost will be found again

and you'll stay with me forever........?

well that's it short his time

i wrote this

the time has come for us to turn the lights off

turn around and say good bye to the darkness

it's so hard to say goodbye to the past

but sometime you just have to say good bye

i know its hard to try and push through the wilderness we call this world

ill reach my hand out , only thing you need to do is grab it

and well run into the new world , well find whats there waiting for us

searching for our life's

the light thats always at the end of the corner , is sitting there waiting to shine on us

that's why we hve to keep on going

were restarting

was it good ?

CAN YOU ROCK MY WORLD 'no'

well i didn't think so , but i know what can

Guitar Hero World Tour wooo have you ever just wanted to act like a rock star and just play with your guitar all day well now you can

wast no time in buy this game it worth the money

i have to put this up this is some thing everyone has to see this is what dhin does when he thinks no one looking

this is at Weatcheaster for the program we did this summer ,

do you know how high up i was when i did that lets just say it higher then Furness is

just us dancing lol

Kingdom Hearts 385/2 days

oh! what is that a picture of the last member of Organization XIII, or shill i say XIIII now that we know who XION! is , and whats this she's talking with Rikku , but what about , who is this Xion , and why is she able to use a keyblade
oh well guess we have to wait till the game come out to find out XD

this i my lyrics i own them no copying this got that ask first

you sat there looking me in my eyes like you always did
you told me that i reminded you of a trap Bird in a cage
you said one day you would free me from my prison that i called a cage
that you would be my salvation
that i wouldn't need anything in this world again
don't you understand your the only thing i want in this world
you can keep me in this cage and put a lock on it
i just want you
stay by me until my time ends

this is not my lyrics i just want to put them up

I’m thinking about you so much…time doesn’t stop for meMy empty heart still can’t find your feelings
I can never draw the same picture twiceBut my emotions are just repeating over and over again
Let me listen to your “love song.” (1) I stared at your profile (2)I want to know about you, now that I’ve met you
No matter how lonely I get, I have a feeling we’ll meet againI don’t need a reason; I know I can’t turn back
With the way it is now (3), I’ll just become a part of your memory(4), right?My emotions shone like the depths of tears…
Let me listen to your “love song.” Your profile…I understand there’s a person you’re gazing at right in front of you but… (5)
Please give me wings and believe that, just as with this song (6), I swearI’ve decided to accept all the past
I hum the “love song”…I want to touch your smiling faceEven though I know that there’s someone you’re gazing at
My “love song” never ends - I’ve already met you (7)…It never will end…

they where done by a singer mane YUI

whose been keeping up with there anime i know i have , guess what naruto is coming out with there 5th movie BONDS , dude i'm so guessing you know whose going to be the main two people

thats right naruto and sasuke woo! this movie will be the boom lol

Plot summary
A mysterious group of ninja springs a surprise attack on the Konohagakure, which almost destroys it. The nightmare of another Great Ninja War could become a reality. Sasuke appears for the second time in front of Naruto at an unknown location to help prevent it from coming to fruition.

i just want to need you
and you need me too
lets be each other air
lets have the type of love not healthy

you be the light , and i can be the darkness
lets just act like little kids again
i just want to stay here , and act like nothing happening
lets just stay here and dream a little while longer
as the sky passes us , i just sit here and wonder
why the world is so beautiful yet truly ugly
the dream that fade in the night can no longer be seen

this is now of my old stories it is bad , but im still putting it up its about naruto the anime

Title-Bitter

Sakura P.O.V

As I sit under this tree in this hot summer day in Konoha , I just start to think why“Why did Sasuke-kun have to leave”

‘Because he has to get stronger to be able to kill his brother’

Ok I know that but why did he have to leave with out me

‘Because he didn’t want you to get hurt’

Because he didn’t want me to get hurt that’s what I keep on telling my self but then I start to think what if I wasn’t the one who was there to see Sasuke leave what if it was Naruto instead

Would he still be here Or Would he had still left

Would he had took Naruto with him or would he had left naruto behind just like me

I find myself thinking that he would have taken Naruto with him and he would have stayed if Naruto had asked bad enough

Yeah I know he would had of stayed , he always did have a soft spot for Naruto.

Yup a soft spot called love , no matter how hard I tried sasuke never looked at me the way he looked at naruto , never smiled at me the way he smiled at Naruto , not that he ever really smiled , but when he did it was always towards Naruto

Always naruto

Ah I shouldn’t be like this it’s not naruto fault that sasuke loved him it’s my fault.

Maybe if I had stopped being such a to him all the time I could have told him that sasuke loved him , but no I wanted sasuke to my self and you know what I still do no matter how much I hide it I still want him , and if I had a chance to go back change things I’d do the same thing again

You want to know why?

“Hi Sakura-chan I’m sorry I’m late for our date”

“It’s ok Naruto , I missed you” I say as I place a kiss on his cheek and we start to walk through the park.

‘ Because I’m just bitter like that you know’

i know sucks right

ok this is my blog , like i'll blog stuff on here ok

Thanks for reading